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"Stop. You can’t love me because you’re lonely, or because I am the only one who doesn’t piss you off. I want to piss you off, I want to get on your fucking nerves. I don’t want the responsibility of always being your rock. I will try, but I’m a mess, too. I lie, I sleep too much and I don’t like children under the age of 6, really. I don’t even know if I want kids because I’m selfish, and mothers can’t be selfish once they decide to carry another life.
I’m always looking for the rain to come so I trip over my own feet. I know exactly what the air smells like before a storm.
Before you fall in love with me, I want you to know that I cry a lot because it feels good, and I masturbate at least 4 times a week, and you might fall out of love with me before either of us are ready for it.
I have no experience with this. I’m trying to be brave and smart but its almost impossible to be both at the same time.
You can’t love me like a fire escape. Sometimes I will be the match, or the smoke under the door. I don’t know what I’m doing, all I know is that we all catch fire sometimes, before we even get warm.
Before you fall in love with me, I want you to know that there’s a 50% chance that this won’t work, that one of us will wind up hating the other. I will try to keep your head above water, but sometimes I’ll need help, too.
I can’t be your savior, and I don’t expect you to be mine. Just watch me unfold and I’ll watch you unfold, too. We’ll get drunk and tell each other everything. I know that’s cheating but maybe it’ll be alright. Maybe we won’t wake up embarrassed.

I am going to fall in love with you, too, feet first. Maybe we’ll slow dance off a building together, maybe we’ll have forgotten each other’s names by this time next year. I don’t care, the sky is gray with or without you, so I’m not going to look up anymore, I’m going to look ahead ."

before you fall in love with me | Caitlyn S. (via alonesomes)

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humans are so cute, when we say goodbye we put our arms around each other and to show we love someone we bring them flowers. we say hello by holding each other’s hand, and sometimes tiny little dewdrops form in our eyes. for pleasure we listen to arrangements of sounds, press our lips together, smoke dried leaves, get drunk off of old fruit. we’re all just little animals, falling in love and having breakfast beneath billions of stars

this is my favorite post

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this is probably my all time favorite poem on here.
i think it is absolutely beautiful. 

this is probably my all time favorite poem on here.

i think it is absolutely beautiful. 

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This goes with the list picture post.

1. tell me about your ex. 

Oh jeez which one, lets go with the most recent one that i didnt even date. 

he was such a tool to everyone, he talked shit about me to everyone, but around me he was sweet and cute, and we had so much fun together, he told me alot about himself, and he knew alot about me, he was one of my best friends. he hurt me alot. i never got to say goodbye. but i don’t miss him. you can see my letter saying how sorry i am below. 

2. drunken story time… 

There are lots of these stories, lets go with the time that i got really drunk got shut out in a game of beer pong, had to do a naked mile, on this naked mile i had to let some people into my building which might have been the single most awkward moment of my life. then when i came back my clothes were hidden. but the dumbasses forgot that i lived in the dorm to and i could just walk into my room and get new clothes. 

3. a secret i havent told many people. 

i have some issues with eating from time to time. 

4. a fact about the last person i kissed. 

he is the biggest scumbag i have ever met in my entire life. 

5. favorite tv show. 

SUPERNATURAL!

6. what my last recieved text message says

lol boo

7. what last made me laugh til i cried.

all of the damn cheese my friend ordered at friendlies loll 

8. list of concerts ive attended. 

avril lavigne, relient k, jars of clay, peter paul and mary, blue october, bamboozle 2011 and 2012, the offspring, third eye blind, i think thats it. 

9. my christmas list

my port to be approved, service dog, new computer, i guess some new clothes?

10. what im wearing

jeans, a giant beatles sweatshirt, and a long sleeve white t-shirt.

11. favorite song.

this changes from time to time, right now its the a team by ed sheeran  

12. how i met the person i fell the hardest for.

i guess at school, but the first time i noticed him was at sailing practice, it was raining and the group of us were stuck of this little raft thing and we decided to huddle together cause it was cold and we were wet and we made eye contact and he was wearing a white t-shirt, light blue board shorts, and his green eyes popped. this was 6 years ago. i still remember everything about that moment. 

13. favorite memory of this past summer. 

camp week with the 5th and 6th graders, they were great. so much fun and i will always remember those little guys. and i can’t wait to see them back next year. 

14. craziest thing i’ve ever done. 

i hate this question. 

15. jewelry that im wearing 

my bracelet from Australia, my lyme memorial bracelet, the bracelet my dad gave me on my 18th birthday, my bamboozle bracelet, my necklace with my two quote charms and my best friend charm.

16. turn ons

funny guys if you can make me laugh i will notice you, blonde hair blue eyes, green eyes, swimmers body, dancing with their hand in the waist band of my pants, kiss me hard and leave me breathless by the end.

17. last awkward situation i was in.

umm some really annoying kid in my class left his number in my car, now i have to go to class on thursday and deal with him lol

18. quote i live by

 I’m a grenade and at some point I’m going to blow up and I would like to minimize the casualties, okay? - the fault in our stars, john green 

religion is an incarnation of the most childish superstition - Albert Eisenstein 

those sum up two of my major beliefs in life. 

19. a story about me and my best friend. 

lets see. ill tell you a tame one but one of my favorite memories, at school there was a hole in the fence behind the dorms that led threw a little forest area then down a little cliff thing that you needed to use a rope to get down, and my best friend is not outdoorsy so that part was always hysterical and an adventure in itself. then we got down to the rocks right next to the beach and we layed down and by my school there wasnt much light out there so you could see all the stars aand we watched the meteor shower and my best friend is from the city so it was the first time she had ever see a shooting star. and we just hung out and talked and it was a really good night. 

my other best friend and me, my favorite memories with her are probably just driving around all over late at night in Bugatti  teaching her to drive. half terrified cause i was to young to be teaching someone to drive. laughing our asses off at the stupidest shit. playing the music so loud you can barley hear yourself think, and singing along at the top of your lungs. those are some of the most fun and relaxed times i have had since high school started. no matter what we do we laugh 

20. opinion of age difference in relationships 

i think if your 13 you should be dating someone 13 or 14. if your 16 you should be dating someone within 2 years of your age. if your 18 within 5 year upwards 2 years downwards. 20 anywhere up to 7 or 8 years older 2 years younger. 30 you can date 5 or 6 years younger and just about as old as you want. and so on. you know?

21. a gif to describe how i am feeling right now. 

i will answer this separately

22. lyrics to my favorite song.

 White lips, pale face

Breathing in snowflakes 

Burnt lungs, sour taste

Light’s gone, day’s end

Struggling to pay rent

Long nights, strange men

And they say

She’s in the Class A Team

Stuck in her daydream

Been this way since 18

But lately her face seems

Slowly sinking, wasting

Crumbling like pastries

And they scream

The worst things in life come free to us

Cause we’re just under the upper hand

And go mad for a couple of grams

And she don’t want to go outside tonight

And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland

Or sells love to another man

It’s too cold outside

For angels to fly

Angels to fly

Ripped gloves, raincoat

Tried to swim and stay afloat

Dry house, wet clothes

Loose change, bank notes

Weary-eyed, dry throat

Cool girl, no phone

And they say

She’s in the Class A Team

Stuck in her daydream

Been this way since 18

But lately her face seems

Slowly sinking, wasting

Crumbling like pastries

And they scream

The worst things in life come free to us

Cause we’re just under the upper hand

And go mad for a couple of grams

And she don’t want to go outside tonight

And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland

Or sells love to another man

It’s too cold outside

For angels to fly

An angel will die

Covered in white

Closed eye

And hoping for a better life

This time, we’ll fade out tonight

Straight down the line

And they say

She’s in the Class A Team

Stuck in her daydream

Been this way since 18

But lately her face seems

Slowly sinking, wasting

Crumbling like pastries

They scream

The worst things in life come free to us

And we’re all under the upper hand

Go mad for a couple of grams

And we don’t want to go outside tonight

And in a pipe we fly to the Motherland

Or sell love to another man

It’s too cold outside

For angels to fly

Angels to fly

Fly, fly

For angels to fly

To fly, to fly

Or angels to die

23. have i ever been cheated on?

umm im not really sure, he swears up and down no, she told everyone and their mother yes. but he lied about just about every so probably. 

24. opinion on cheating.

its fucked up. just breakup with the other person first if you want someone else that bad. 

25. most recent picture i took.

this blog is anonymous and the most recent picture i took is of me. so im not going to do this one. 

26.  how many followers do i have.

like 550ish 

27. first ten songs to play on my shuffle

godspeed- the red jumpsuit apparatus

 memories- david guetta & kid cuddi

false pretenses- the red jumpsuit apparatus 

kiss my sass- cobra starship

the shot heard round the world- boys like girls

for the first time- the script

good vibrations- glee

send my love to the dance floor- cobra starship

beautiful mistake- better than ezra

if the moon falls down tonight- chase coy

28. best friend on tumblr.

my best friend on tumblr is my best friend period. that sounded sad. like i know her in real life lol

29. cutest thing anyone’s ever done for you. 

umm people dont really do cute things for me. im not the type of person who inspires cute acts. but once a guy rode his bike like 3 miles to get me a big mac cause i had my period and i was craving one big time. lol 

30. most traumatic experience. 

when i first got sick and i was in the hospital, i had a fever of 104 and i was vomiting everywhere and my head felt like it was going to explode and my mom kept whispering to the doctors and they just kept reassuring her about something  and then a doctor came in and said they were taking me for a spinal tap immediately and my mom burst into tears and started screaming at the doctors saying they had lied to her and that they think i have meningitis and that her baby is going to die. and i am just laying in this hospital bed thinking im only 16 years old i dont even have the energy to get up to pee, two weeks ago i was at a basic training program run by the military, now i might die. the doctors tried to calm her down but i could see that what she was saying was the truth that they were checking for meningitis and if i did have it, it was pretty far along. so in that moment i genuinely thought i was going to die. and looking back on it and looking at the last 3 and a half years i kinda wish i had. 


im donee =)   

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